all i want for christmas

Last night I took a walk in the snow
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love
Santa can you hear me?

I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I sent it off, and it just said this:
I know exactly what I want this year
Santa can you hear me?
I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me, someone to hold
Maybe, baby
He'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa, that's my only wish this year

Oh yeah...yeah

Christmas eve, I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong in taking a peek?
Cuz I heard that you're coming to town
Santa can you hear me?

I really hope that you're on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Oh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me?
I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me, someone to hold
Maybe, baby
We'll be all alone, under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa, that's my only wish this year

I hope my letter reaches you in time (oh yeah)
Bring me a love I can call all mine (oh yeah)
Cuz I have been so good this year (oh)
I can't be alone under the mistletoe...
He's all I want in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (oh yeah)
Santa, that's my only wish this year

Ahh...Oh Santa, can you hear me, oh, oh Santa
Well he's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (oh yeah)
Santa that's my only wish this year


Hmmm.... Dear Santa, have I been a very very bad this year?  (sniff sniff)

I was about to write my Christmas wishes only to realize that it might be a total waste of time. Things were not going on a way I wanted it to be.

Anyway, I still believe in Santa.

picture problem

Unfortunately, I still have the same problems with regards to uploading pictures. Too bad, just when I have so many pictures to upload.

I currently don't hold any credit cards as I vow to myself not to own one #nocontrolovercreditcard as I suffered a lot when I still have back in Manila.

So the only card I own is my debit card which I don't want to use as much as possible on online purchases coz if worst things may happen like card hacking, it will be impossible to recover the amount lost in my account (not to mention my monthly salary was being credited in the same debit card).

So for now, I think my posts will nothing but just plain text  -___-

Had a long video chat with Joan yesterday and one thing is for sure, I do miss this gal big time. Can't wait to see her again and go travel with her around the world ^___^

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Here's the deal, somebody was asking somebody to confirm some suspicions / rumors about me. My reaction was "what?!?". Wtf!

I'm quite surprised coz I never thought she will do such thing. Anyway, she used to be nice to me so I'll let this pass by. I will no longer comment about that, nor confirm things as I don't need to explain myself to other people, whatever they may think about me.

I'm a hypocrite, maybe yes maybe no.

I'm a wrecker, maybe yes maybe no.

I'm a slut, maybe yes maybe no.

I'm a shitty person, maybe yes maybe no.

You can say or comment whatever you wanted to me, the hell I care.

After all, it's my life.

december it is

Can't believe it's already December! 24 more days to go and it's Christmas time. Too bad my December vacation was not approved so most likely I will celebrate my Christmas here in Dubai again. -___-

So starting today, I will only play Christmas songs. No more SNSD songs nor pop songs. Must download good Christmas songs to my phone nao!

But seriously, can't feel the Christmas spirit here. Maybe coz I'm in an Arabic country where they don't celebrate Christmas. The only consolation during this period was that the temperature changes, much more cooler than last month. 

This will be my fourth Christmas away from my family. The thought of it gives me a little bit of loneliness and the feeling of being apart and far away from them.

Coz I remember back in Philippines, this is the most celebrated season of the year. You can feel the festive mood everywhere. Trees, buildings and streets were adorned with colorful lights that's so nice to watch at night.

And Simbang Gabi will start on 16th of December. They say if you were able to complete all the masses from 16-25 of December, your wish will come true. But you have to wake up very early in return just to attend this mass.

Perks of Christmas? Of course, gifts! Christmas parties everywhere, and in every party there will be an exchange gift so the whole month is nothing but exchanging or giving gifts to one another.

Awww... Now I so miss my home, my family. I hope next year I will be able to celebrate it with them.

Btw, I can't upload pictures in my Sri Lanka trip post anymore as my picassa album is already full and needs to be upgraded. Haayz, do I really need to pay to upgrade it so I can continue to post pics?  

back again

I'm back - back to my sentiments.

This evening was one of the most fucked up moments in the office. I knew one day this will happen but I never thought the feeling could be like this.

So now I will be a cleaner and a treasure hunter. Yeah right. Do the shitty part.

I admit I was never been perfect in my work but when I used to handle that, I never faced so much problems like this. They might think am just covering up myself but what the hell! Everything's fine because am putting so much effort and time on it. Playing smart when you're against the odds. While she didn't and now this.

Now who's paying the price?

Feels like I will be trap into this mess for quite sometime. I don't want to handle it anymore but they already decided about it. Anyway, who's more qualified to do it than me? Damn it! 

And am just starting to fix my own mess. I want to cry.

It really ruins my day and my coming weekend.

Feels so shitty I want to take a rest.