hair prob

I seriously wanted to scream.

You see, I had this wonderful idea of dyeing my hair on my own. I've never done that before but since I thought it would be too simple to do, I tried my luck.

After long hours of washing, coloring, washing and drying, I was too excited to look in the mirror for the result. To my grimace, it's not that well even. There's still some brown left on my hair. But the roots and ends were perfectly colored, how come the body of my hair were not? Waaaaa...

I'm not sure what to do, am thinking to buy a new set of color to color my hair again but looking back of the hassle I went through, maybe I'll just bear having two tones for now and go to some decent salon when I have time.

And I was too excited and happy to have a super jet black hair. My hair was not naturally super black. It's black but not that black. So the thought of having one will be good since a lot of people were colouring their hair in either brown or something a bit different from their original hair color. But it turned out like this. Soooo sad.

Anyway, what's done is done. Now I've learned my lesson not to color my own hair.

Btw, it's confirmed. They saw the moon already. So it's a long weekend, yipeee!!!

Happy eid mubarak everyone! :D

X_X

I'm so worried I don't know what to do.

The hardest part is that I'm far away from them I'm being ignorant of what's happening there.

I don't know what to do. And it's eating me up from inside. I don't know what help I can offer nor any consolation. 

Why I feel like being useless in times like this?

I think it runs in our blood. So I'm not the only one.

And I need an outlet for this. But I don't know who I should talk to. And me myself is in current shaky situation.

Haha... Funny, maybe I'll get crazy first here.

today

Okay, am currently so broke I want to die.

Am so waiting for the next salary, which is unfortunately quite late for this month.

Geez, one more week and two more weekends and I’ll be back to normal. Good thing it’s Ramadan so it’s not worth it to go out as most of the restaurants were closed plus it’s already super freakin’ hot outside.

Now I’m wondering how we are able to enjoy ourselves at Yas Waterworld last week in this heat. They had this hotelier promotion so we got a big discount. Though am expecting a lot of rides, we did enjoy it as we tried almost all of it except one (the scary one where you will be put in a capsule like ride and drop you on a very long slide). I used to be a scaredy cat but since Silvester was too excited, he drag us to all rides (except for what I’ve mentioned earlier).

But I always had fun whenever I go visit my friends in Abu Dhabi. It’s like am so free whenever am with them I can do anything. Maybe coz all of us are spontaneous and we do everything out of the moment without prior planning (I suck in planning ahead of time). Then Silvester loves to cook so I don’t get hungry whenever am with them and we can sing non stop as he have his own karaoke while Blesie loves to chat non stop and we were like crazy for talking about everything - even the stupid ones and she tolerates my bratty side so it’s fine.

Too bad they were now very far from me. 

And our flat will soon be inhabitat by those people whom I can't get along with. Cathy is moving out this weekend so I keep on praying that the ones who will  replace her in her room will be much better (though one of the friends of first room already ask me before if she can move once Cathy is out and I say yes coz am pretty drunk that time). Haay, people really come and go.

Anyway, let's see what will happen next.

what to do

I. AM. SO. DOOMED.

You see, I was suppose to do four SOPs today so I can pass it tomorrow but I can't concentrate on thinking about SOPs I ended up reading manga and watching movies. And now it's already late night and I haven't started my second SOP. Think I'll never get the allowance again this month. What a shame.

But I seriously wanted to have it done and submit it by tomorrow as I really needed extra allowance this month. Since I went for that vacay and I still have to pay for something and I have to go again for vacay on Oct, I badly needed extra money.

Come to think of it, it's not all about extra money. I also feel that coz of my negligence, I sort of disappointing my manager for not doing my homework properly. It's started last April and up to date I didn't do anything.

...

So I had "this" chat with Jacky last time. Somehow, it feels good to let out something that's been bugging me for quite sometime. It feels good to be with my real friends. They somehow brought back the warmth inside me.

I don't need to justify myself to other people, coz I normally let them think and say whatever they wanted behind my back. But it still bugs me a bit coz I'm being judge unfairly.

To you, you know who you are, this will be the last time I'm gonna write or mention you in this blog. Stop talking behind my back coz it's not fair that I can't defend myself and people are judging me based on your stories. If you feel that I treat you badly, think it twice. Stop being a pathetic person. But knowing you, I seriously don't care if you can't shut your fucking mouth. I know you love to talk, you fucking love to tell people about everything, even those things that you should keep to yourself only. I'm almost regretting getting close to you and I take back unblocking you.

That's it, now all I need to worry is to chase some sleep.