dead me

I'm so tired I lost my appetite to eat.

Currently am swimming with my work I want to shred all the papers in my table.

Had to extend big time today so atleast my work for tomorrow will be lessen.

 

This is me right now...

And what irritates me to no end is that when I got home, the A/C is turned off by these buggers housemate of mine. Ampf!

I wonder why I can't keep my mouth shut coz earlier the guard was saying something to other people while I was asking for some maintenance form and I got curious so I ask why. She said that it's no longer allowed to bring home uniforms. Then she asked me, idiot me said it's my uniform so she got my name, staff number and flat. Whatever.  As if that can stop me.

Anyway, my brain is not working anymore. 

finally!

Finally got my ticket back home. And to my surprise, they got a direct flight for me. Woohoo!!!

Unfortunately, I'll arrive there at night and I'll be back here at night as well. Well I know they're going to pick me up in the airport there but arriving at night means I lose one day of going around. I really have limited days there so I want to maximize it as much as possible. Unfortunately, I can't change the dates anymore and I'm afraid that if I will complain with the flight timings, they will give me shitty flight instead.

I know this sucks to think but since I don't expect someone to pick me up from the airport back here, I feel bad going home at night. Travelling alone in the taxi when I can't even think to close my eyes coz I'm still afraid that the driver will drop me somewhere in the middle of the desert (yes, our accomodation is located somewhere in the desert, wtf)

And the most annoying thing  is that I'm gonna spend my birthday all alone. Although I do hope that someone with a big heart will surprise me, I know it's not gonna happen. Why did my birthday have to be on saturday and not friday? :( :( :( 

And my box is still in my room. Guess I'll be gone and back when it reaches the destination.

Tomorrow I need to do again a 10-15 minute training. I seriously don't know how did I become a trainer when I suck in that department. Honestly, I hate training. Though I can do it one by one, doing it with several people is a different case. I tend to get shaky and nervous. And I tend to forgot the things I always wanted to say. And tomorrow it's with the whole team. I'm so nervous I want to call sick.

fun day

I had so much fun today. The whole finance team went for bowling and this is the first time I enjoyed playing bowling (maybe coz am little lucky today that my scores were not that low?) and everybody had a good time playing. Sorry for those who didn't come, they miss all the fun.

Also, eventhough it's only the start of "ber" months, I already bought my Christmas gifts to my friends. I'm thinking whether to wrap them or leave it as it is. My gifts for my frineds in Manila am sure am not gonna wrap coz I'll still need to put them inside my luggage. Am so excited to give it to them. I hope they will like it. But am still undecided which one to give who. I bought seven for the meantime for my girlfriends and for my guy friends, maybe later on. Ohhh.... super excited.

Btw, lately I'm waking up at 4am which irritates me to no end. And coz of this, am having headache. Not a simple headache but super headache that I need to take medicine for it. Am so looking forward for vacation.

Tomorrow's the last day of the week. At last!!!

sickly weekend

I'm terribly sick since yesterday. And I hate it.

When I woke up yesterday morning, I felt that I already got the virus coz my body is not feeling okay. I tried to be alright for the whole day but it turned worse when I attended that presentation hel by Network coz I felt suffocated in the back office and it clogged my nose to no end. Prishy was there and she was saying something to me but I can't seem to understand her so I'm just saying yes to everything she says (hope nothing important that needed a "no" answer). Even the guy from Network kept on telling me something but my brain refuse to process such information so I guess he thinks it's useless to talk to me. Well, I couldn't help it. Then when I came back to the office, I forgot to remind them regarding the info that Makram wants to pass them (felt guilty but it totally slipped out of my mind coz I'm concentrating on during the whole training not to sneeze and sniff).

Then found some arabic sweets left by Mazen in my table. Afterwards, had a little birthday celebration in the office. Had to hide in the back coz my nose is crying non stop and I had to stuff tissue to it. And I lost my taste buds (not literally) that time that the chocolate cake taste like bitter cake, wtf!

Went home shivering so I just decided to eat some noodles while watching "Die Hard 2". Man, Bruce Willis still does have hair! I sort of got addicted to "Die Hard" I watched all the series and had to pay AED20 to watch the last series on tv. 

Back to being sick, the thing I hated being sick is that first of all, I don't have any stock of medicine at home. I found some but it's for cough. And currently I only have cold and flu and I don't want to take medicine that it's not for cold as my body has this stupid habit of getting sick when I took a medicine especifically for that certain illness. I took once a medicine for cough eventhough I only have fever and later on got cough for some reason. Also there was a time am having pms that I don't have mefenamic acid I took the medicine for lbm the next thing I know I really got lbm. Then there was time as well that I can't sleep and someone from the clinic gave me a medicine for anti histamine that will make me drowsy and help me sleep but when I took it, later on my allergies came out I became itchy I can't sleep for the whole night. So now am becoming a bit cautious of the medicine that am taking. Whew, what a hassle.

My body really feels heavy and my fever is not going down. But I don't have a choice but to do my laundry (I regret for being lazy last week and skipped doing laundry). I only did one batch coz I'm feeling dizzy. Cooked some pasta for lunch coz am already starving to death. 

I almost regret also volunteering to go to the office tomorrow but I think I need to anyway to get some medicine in the clinic. I need to take something as my cold and fever is getting worse. Times like this, I can't be lazy coz nobody will take care of me except for myself. It sucks to be alone.

Right now, my nose is so stuffed it makes me hard to breath. I need yo sleep early coz I woke up very early this morning (I first woke up around 4am coz I heard my flatmates were chatting or cooking outside then I woke second time around 7:30am - the usual time I wake up every morning).

Hope my condition will be okay tomorrow so I can finish work early then I can pass by quickly in the supermarket to grab something to eat. I don't have enough supplies in the house now. Living alone really sucks!!!