hello 2015

My first post for the year was quite late. But as they say, it's better to be late than never.

Recap recap... What's with 2014?

January

• resigned from my work after almost three years

February

• moved in to Abu Dhabi in a new flat with boxes & boxes & boxes of things to arrange

March

• flew to Doha as needed for my visa change. First flight out although it's just a roundtrip, literally
• went gaga looking for a new room coz got problem with the room I previously got. Had to squeeze myself in at Rahyan's flat for two weeks. Luckily found one that's quite near in my new work; about 8-10 minutes by walk.
• started at my new work; "new girl" is it again 

April

• had this terrible paranoia coz of this old room. Had to buy new things for the room as well

May

• finally found a carlift - service every morning to pick me and drop to the office
• first time trying out ordering those products online and result was good

June

• ordered another big batch of goodies
• start of the Ramadan, too hot to even go out

July

• mobile phone went gaga had to factory reset it

August

• went for a relaxing stay at Ritz Carlton over the weekend
• bought my smart tv and I've never been glad that I did

September

• finished my six months probation period  - atlast

October

• birthday month! what more to say?
• went for a short break in Brazil. First time to fly more than 13-14hours alone

November

• Manila here I come!
• went for long drives with my family to Ilocos and some part of Taal volcano
• had the biggest shock of my life that left me airheaded for weeks

December

• went to Doha for "Time & Priority Management Training"
• gate crashed RC Christmas party

Well, that's it for my whole year. Nothing much, just travelled continously in the last quarter. Can't believe how time flies.

Anyhow, had the best New Year as I celebrated the first day of the year with my family. After five long years. It was so unplanned that I only bought my ticket on 31Dec14 when the long weekend was confirmed.

Anyway, that's it. Hoping for a wonderful 2015. Fingers crossed.

dot dot dot

I'm starting to feel afraid that if ever I'll have a child, it will be ugly.

Not that I'm saying I have bad genes or my soon to be partner have one, lol.

It's just that whenever I see someone else baby, I never find it cute. Most of them are uncute (or it's only in my eyes). Okay, sorry for being rude. I'm not perfect but I tend to criticize them. And can't help not to feel sorry for the little ones. I think I just have high standards.

But I believe that it is important for a parent to be honest. If your baby or child is not cute, then stop saying it's the cutest thing. Photos and videos can't lie. Eyes of people can't lie.

Waaaa.... Excuse me for all these blabbering. I just can't help myself not to coz been seeing lotsa baby pictures on fb. 

a day in the bed

Woke up today feeling so dizzy and totally not okay. Had to send a message to the office that I'll try to report around lunchtime coz I know I won't be able to make it. Then I tried to sleep again, only to wake up still not feeling any better.

Just came back from my two days training in Doha. Course is good.  Nothing more to comment about. 

Met Joan and Lois while there. Nice to see familiar faces. Unfortunately, I'm not that excited to roam around Doha as I've been there before. Aside that it looks like Abu Dhabi, only a bit much more laid back.

Worst, I don't have food and medicine. Coz I was suppose to go to the supermarket after office. Luckily there's one old cup noodles hiding at the back of my cupboard. Add up some egg on it, afterwards suffered a stomachache. Whataday!

Currently still in my pajamas with a blanket around me as I'm freakingly feeling cold despite adjusting the a/c in my room. Hate this feeling.

Hope I'll get better tomorrow morning.

another page

Just when I thought everything was fine. Too good to be true.

Never thought I'd feel so scared in my life. That behind the facade am sporting, my guts are all tied in knots.

Looking at you, I tried so hard not to care too much. That everything is okay. But the truth is, am so scared.

Then reality hits me, what if something bad will happen? So many what ifs run in my head that it gave me so much head ache.

One moment we were laughing, the next moment you're in a bad shape.

All plans were cancelled and forgotten.

I can't sleep and headache never left my head. Been a constant companion of mine.

Then I started worrying about everything and everybody.

To the point of not wanting to leave, but I need to move. Life must go on.

I prayed so hard. And beg to God and asked for His forgiveness for all the wrong doings I've done. 

I hate hospitals.....