Wednesday, November 14, 2012

back again

I'm back - back to my sentiments.

This evening was one of the most fucked up moments in the office. I knew one day this will happen but I never thought the feeling could be like this.

So now I will be a cleaner and a treasure hunter. Yeah right. Do the shitty part.

I admit I was never been perfect in my work but when I used to handle that, I never faced so much problems like this. They might think am just covering up myself but what the hell! Everything's fine because am putting so much effort and time on it. Playing smart when you're against the odds. While she didn't and now this.

Now who's paying the price?

Feels like I will be trap into this mess for quite sometime. I don't want to handle it anymore but they already decided about it. Anyway, who's more qualified to do it than me? Damn it! 

And am just starting to fix my own mess. I want to cry.

It really ruins my day and my coming weekend.

Feels so shitty I want to take a rest.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

misfortune 101

Have you ever experience having a cancelled flight? I think a lot of people already did but I just had mine last night at Colombo (my trip will be in a separate post). And I can say, it was horrible!

Our flight from Mihin Lanka was scheduled to leave at 10:40pm. Once onboard the plane, we heard the announcement that the take off will be a little bit delayed due to some late group of people that was still on the transfer bus. So after an hour or so, the plane started it's pre take off run. But just before it was about to take off the ground, we heard this freaking sound and the plane cannot fly. All of us got worried because it's not a joke. What if something went wrong and the plane just crashed after it's take off? The captain was not being helpful with his excuse and he just mumbled something incoherent. People started screaming and shouting and getting hysterical - especially those people who have their kids with them. So after minutes and minutes of waiting without any advice given, we suddenly realize that people were started getting out of the plane. Of course we just went with the flow of the people.

Turned out we were led back to the airport and was given a transit ticket and was advised to wait somewhere in the corner of the airport. It was so annoying and really frustrating coz it was like we were waiting for nothing. Crews and staffs of Mihin Lanka were not telling us anything. No updates. We were just there, waiting. It took us hours and hours. And people are getting hysterical coz some have connecting flights and most wanted to go home - I am one of those who really wanted to go home as I need to report back to work.

After three hours or so, we were finally advised that flight was cancelled, they cannot provide a new flight for us and scheduled us for the next day flight. We were so tired (coz we stroll around Colombo for the whole day) and hungry. And I'm so worried coz I needed to get back and work for 31 as it's the last day of the month and it's the most crucial day. When they announced that we needed to stay for the night and wait for the next flight, my mind went berserk coz I know my manager will kill me. So after we had our snack and while waiting for the bus going to the resort/hotel where we are going to stay, I dropped a short email to Nabil coz my phone's already drained. 

Even the waiting period for the bus took forever and so disorganized. The families, old persons and ladies were left and boarded last on the bus while those single guys went ahead first - which is pretty annoying.

We reached the hotel around 4:30am and I'm really dead tired. We woke around 9:00am and someone knocked on our room advising us that the bus going to the airport is already downstair! So we hurriedly went down and ushered to the bus. 

At the airport, we have to wait for four hours to finally get boarded on the plane. We're really hungry and tired and I still have this uneasiness during take off. I kinda passed out during the flight coz of lack of sleep and the stress we felt. I woke up when I smelled the food they are serving. Guess this is the first time I finished the in-flight meal without leaving anything on my tray.

All I can is, I had a very bad experience with Mihin Lanka and will never try to fly with them again. Staffs were not helpful, not organized and don't have any backup plan during cases like this and not even giving updates what was happening during this period. The only moment I can give a thumbs up is during the landing coz the pilot did it well, we didn't feel any bumpy experience. But the rest of the experience, it was awful. Sorry Mihin Lanka, you will now be on the bottom of my airlines list and I'll never try to fly with you unless necessary.

So that's it for now, I need to sleep coz tomorrow I will be in a battlefield. :(



Friday, October 19, 2012

i want to go home

I was thinking what to do and where to go during the long weekend when an idea hits me - why not go home?

I originally planned to go to Doha but due to the limited time that I have to obtain a visa, I decided not to go. Such a waste as I really wanted to visit Joan. But I realized it was impossible.

Then I hastily searched every airline I know only to find out ticket prices were too expensive for my own liking. So I decided to hunt possible places to go to locally. Only to find out that no discount on hotels were available due to Eid. What a bummer!

But I honestly wanted to spend my precious vacation back home. If only I could.

I feel so lazy to day to move. In the morning I planned to do my nails but now I changed my mind.

I find it amusing to watch the "The Vampire Diaries" marathon translated in Arabic.

Currently listening:

We can't play this game anymore, but
Can we still be friends?
Things just can't go on like before, but
Can we still be friends?

We had something to learn

Now it's time for the wheel to turn
Things are said one by one
Before you know it's all gone

Let's admit we made a mistake, but

Can we still be friends?
Heartbreak's never easy to take, but
Can we still be friends?

It's a strange sad affair

Sometimes seems like we just don't care
Don't waste time feeling hurt
We've been through hell together

La la la la, la la la la

Can we still be friends?
Can we still get together sometime?

We awoke from our dream

Things are not always what they seem
Memories linger on
It's like a sweet sad old song


...

I so gonna hate the coming two weeks... If only I didn't overspend...

Friday, October 12, 2012

sleepless night

Time check, 2:30am. Goodness, I dunno what's happening to me. I don't feel sleepy but I really wanted to sleep. I keep on yawning but my body doesn't want to sleep. Uh ohh... I'm in this moment again.

Am feeling anxious for something I don't know. I'm in this stage again that I no longer enjoy doing my job. And it sucks. I want to resign. :(

I don't want to stay at home alone but I don't want t go out either. I didn't made any plans for weekend coz I know how impulsive I can be.

Staring unknowingly on that direction, memories flooded in my mind again. At one moment in my life, I became so happy. But at the same time, I became so extremely depressed. I lose my old self. I lose me. I lose every dignity and respect in myself that I build up for the past 28 years. And the funny thing, I'm still feeling this extremes within myself. Like yin yang.

I need diversion coz it's affecting me in every way. It's like life had been slowly sucking out of me. Like there's a miasma of negativity around me. And people are beginning to distance themselves away from me. I told myself it's okay but honestly, it bothers me. Big time.

Currently listening to Nina's "Renditions of the Soul"

You came along
At the wrong place, at the wrong time
Or was it me