left behind

Okay, so my other two flatmates will soon leave.

Cathy just sent me a message that she decided to move to a new flat today or tomorrow since she already got promoted and she doesn't like her new roommate.

Arlene already resigned and will only stay until the end of this month.

So that left me with the other two new flatmates and soon there will be too more. What a bummer.

I should say I don't care, but I still felt this pang of loneliness inside me. It was always hard for me to get left behind. Maybe am so used to leave behind people that now people are leaving me behind, I got sort of affected.

Before in this flat, it was me, Blesie, Erlyn and Cathy. Then an Indonesian came and then left afterwards. Then Arlene came. But so Blesie resigns. Erlyn decided to move with Marj when I got promoted. Then Arlene resigns. Then Cathy moved to a new flat. Why do I have to get left behind? :(

I just hope that my soon to be flatmates were ok. Non smokers, non drinkers and no boyfriends hanging out in the living room.

:( :( :(

really?

Wow! I couldn't believe it when I checked my stats for my readers and saw that there's a high percentage of readers that came from Russia and Poland! I wanted to tell it to Sandra (my Polish colleague) but decided not to as I don't want to talk about my blog in the office. 

Recently I like the atmosphere in our section. I'm having fun chatting with Sandra and Shamli. Seriously, I don't like those awkward moments that you cannot chat freely with your superior, so am just happy that we are like this. I'm not sure if am being a good leader to them, but I still hope that am guiding them corectly.

Hope we can go out altogether again. We used to go out, go to clubs or hangout somewhere to have a drink. But now, we all went separate ways. Or maybe that's what I think.

I think it's a wrong move for me to delete those messages coz I just remembered how stupid I became. Am thankful I moved on. But one thing pops in my mind, did I?

Just finished watching Superman Returns, Casper, Twilight - New Moon and currently watching Mama Mia. Oh I love Pierce Brosnan!

I wasted my whole day doing nothing. Was supposed to go out but suddenly felt lazy and decided not to go.

Btw, my dreams of going to Acapulco was shattered after reading the shocking news about the massive gang rape happened in one of the resorts. Imagine, six spanish female tourists were raped (one mexican lady was spared) while the seven male were tied up. Considering Acapulco was once quite popular to tourist, now it's reputation was tarnished due to violence.

I feel sad coz Acapulco was also included in my dream list of places I wanted to visit coz I read a travel magazine when I was young and I was fascinated how beautiful and extravagant it looks like. Now am scared coz am no longer sure about the safety of tourists who's going to stay there.

Anyway, I need to save money if I really wanted to pursue my plan of having a summer trip this year.

new color

New year, new me!

This is quite a bit late change for me but what can I do? Salon is overbooked I only manage to squeeze myself for yesterdays sched.

It took a long journey before I reach that salon. Almost an hour ride in metro and quick taxi trip. It's not the nicest salon but they manage to give the services not badly as what I've read in the reviews (I bought the services pack in cobone). 

Had keratine treatment (which smells awful), full coloring (I asked for darkest shade which is blue violet but turned out a bit reddish wtf), gold mask (which I got several breakouts when I got home) and hair trim (for this one, I got a very poor service as I don't think the lady who trims my hair knows how to properly trim). Overall, I still find the finish product good but so smelly.

Am actually excited for tomorrow as I badly wanted to wash it. Don't care even if the instruction says after three days. Geez, my hair feels so heavy, lumpy, and smelly. Eeewww!

I think I spent seven hours in that salon. And coz of that, I missed Gab's birthday party :(

I was in metro when I got a call from Jaq that Anna got rushed in the hospital so I don't need to go there. I'm actually planning to go to the hospital but I don't know where so I just decided to go home.

Since I'm not in the rush, I tried all the public transpo that day - metro and bus. Going home, I literally ran for the bus as am still far from the bus station when I saw the bus coming near. Maybe I look like a crazy running lady but I actually don't care. Bus is full but luckily I manage to squeez myself inside.

Unfortunately, when I come down, I didn't see the sidewalk humps and I tipped and fell on my knees in front of the bus where all the people saw me (inside and going inside). Mia was also in the same bus helped me to get up and had this mix emotion of laughing and feel sorry for me. She was too kind to like carry me but I told her am perfectly fine and we started to laugh. Well well, am still lucky I didn't got serious injury from that fall aside from a large bruise on my left knee. And luckily, I was wearing jeans. Coz if am wearing shorts, I dunno what will happen to my knee.

Since I missed the 8:30pm bus, I decided to go with my pizza cravings and bought a box in Papa Johns. I was in a real hurry so when the staff told me that solo size is not available, I didn't hesitate to go for the double. And when she asked if I wanted the meal for two package, I just said yes and asked to prepare it as quickly as possible. She said she will try to have it ready by 20mins max. I got worried coz I don't want to miss the bus again but I don't have any choice but to wait. While waiting, I remember my voucher that will expire the next day so I just bought some headphones and memory card. Then I came back exactly 20 minutes later to get my pizza. I just realized that their cheesesticks was as big as the pizza that I ordered wtf! So it's like I have two boxes of pizza, not only good for two but three I guess. 

So when I reached the flat, dunno if my flatmates were there so I started eating it. I only managed to eat four slices of pizza (what a shame :( ) and the rest were set aside in the fridge. 

I got so full and watched movies the whole night. I watched "the hunger games" and there was this one part that I got surprised I wasn't able to supress my scream (sorry dear flatmates). Then this new flatmate came and couldn't open her room's door and had to ask me to open it like their door is different from other doors wtf. It's not like am being a bitch but hello? Commonsense where are you? If key is not working, you have to decide whether to knock and risk of waking up your roommate or call housing staff to open it for you as I don't have any special abilities to open the lock of other doors.

Anyway, I feel bad afterwards as I promised myself to be nice from now on. Uh oh.

Btw, I saw the Ntrust link my brother in law sent to me and it's a nice video. It's about their company's raffle contest winner. Surprisingly, this kinda motivate me to use mine. Haha..

Here's the link just in case anyone like to view it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fNBBBx_DDU8&feature=player_embedded

Tata for now!

holy moly!

Next week I will be on CTC training (sun, tues & thurs) which I suddenly realized a wrong decision of mine as these are the days that am so fucking busy.

Well, since am already got nominated and got included in the list, there's no turning back.

They sent me the docs to fill out I think three days ago but ignored it thinking it's just some kind of questionnaire I can fill out later. Last night before I went home, I remember about it and hastily printed it without reading as am planning to work on it during weekends.

Today I took it out of my bag and to my horror, I saw that aside from the questionnaire, there is this one form were I need to answer it together with my manager and under it, it needs to be signed by both of us. Uh oh.

Here comes my dilemma. I already advised my manager that I'd go directly to ICRS on Sunday since am planning to take the 9am bus (I can sleep more and wake up later). I don't want to pass by in the office just to get his signature as I don't want people to see me. But I seriously don't want to show up in the training room without it as it is some kind of a sign of being irresponsible.

So am currently devising a plan what to reason out why I don't have the signed form.

1. I forgot to bring the signed form as I left it in my drawer
2. I wasn't able to get my manager's signature as we were so so busy last week
3. Pass by in the office quickly and get Nabil's signature

I have one more day to think. I need to decide quickly tomorrow the latest. Oh god, my brain is suddenly fried!

Oki, one pic I found from the departmental lounge fb site:

 our group shot - the first batch of departmental trainers ^_^ (though I look so fat and wasted during this day)