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I can't describe the frustrations am feeling right now. Been staring at those problems and spent atleast three hours figuring how they've come up with the answer. And still wasn't able to solve it. I'm seriously losing my mind here.

Lately my mind is somewhere far. I'm having some difficulty focusing as I tend to lose my concentration eaasily. And worst is that I'm having hard time controlling my temper. That's why nowadays I tend to keep silent and shut my mouth otherwise the risk of slashing out to someone is very high.

Maybe coz of the medicine am taking that's why I'm feeling like this. Or lack of sleep. I don't know.

goals... goals

At the start of year 2015, I made several goals in which I made a firm decision to accomplish them by hook or by crook. So far I listed five of them but I will not disclose them, teehee...

Currently accomplished three out of five. That means I'm already halfway. Two more and I will achieve my target. I'm happy. But what actually happened was that the three of them came in the most unexpected ways.

But as what they say, never pass any opportunity. Previously I always ignored them, but no longer now. If I will not start now, then when?

hello 2015

My first post for the year was quite late. But as they say, it's better to be late than never.

Recap recap... What's with 2014?

January

• resigned from my work after almost three years

February

• moved in to Abu Dhabi in a new flat with boxes & boxes & boxes of things to arrange

March

• flew to Doha as needed for my visa change. First flight out although it's just a roundtrip, literally
• went gaga looking for a new room coz got problem with the room I previously got. Had to squeeze myself in at Rahyan's flat for two weeks. Luckily found one that's quite near in my new work; about 8-10 minutes by walk.
• started at my new work; "new girl" is it again 

April

• had this terrible paranoia coz of this old room. Had to buy new things for the room as well

May

• finally found a carlift - service every morning to pick me and drop to the office
• first time trying out ordering those products online and result was good

June

• ordered another big batch of goodies
• start of the Ramadan, too hot to even go out

July

• mobile phone went gaga had to factory reset it

August

• went for a relaxing stay at Ritz Carlton over the weekend
• bought my smart tv and I've never been glad that I did

September

• finished my six months probation period  - atlast

October

• birthday month! what more to say?
• went for a short break in Brazil. First time to fly more than 13-14hours alone

November

• Manila here I come!
• went for long drives with my family to Ilocos and some part of Taal volcano
• had the biggest shock of my life that left me airheaded for weeks

December

• went to Doha for "Time & Priority Management Training"
• gate crashed RC Christmas party

Well, that's it for my whole year. Nothing much, just travelled continously in the last quarter. Can't believe how time flies.

Anyhow, had the best New Year as I celebrated the first day of the year with my family. After five long years. It was so unplanned that I only bought my ticket on 31Dec14 when the long weekend was confirmed.

Anyway, that's it. Hoping for a wonderful 2015. Fingers crossed.

dot dot dot

I'm starting to feel afraid that if ever I'll have a child, it will be ugly.

Not that I'm saying I have bad genes or my soon to be partner have one, lol.

It's just that whenever I see someone else baby, I never find it cute. Most of them are uncute (or it's only in my eyes). Okay, sorry for being rude. I'm not perfect but I tend to criticize them. And can't help not to feel sorry for the little ones. I think I just have high standards.

But I believe that it is important for a parent to be honest. If your baby or child is not cute, then stop saying it's the cutest thing. Photos and videos can't lie. Eyes of people can't lie.

Waaaa.... Excuse me for all these blabbering. I just can't help myself not to coz been seeing lotsa baby pictures on fb.