epiphany

I've been living in a dream world. In a fantasy.

I always thought that things will go on my way. That if I wanted something so badly, even if they were not suppose to be mine, I can get it if I will work hard.

But I was wrong.

Yesterday while sitting in that table, I suddenly had an epiphany. Things became clear to me. And I cannot do anything about it anymore but to accept things as they were. 

All I need is to move on.

But how?

I already shed a lot of tears. And I told myself that time that I'll cry as much as I can because that will be the last time and I will never cry for the same reason again.

Surprisingly, tears won't fall in my eyes now, even if I feel that am hurting again because of the same reason.

I should be happy, but I'm feeling empty.