Thursday, November 28, 2013


The "now" moment that I cannot properly think nor decide the correct thing to do.

I'm not sure if this is what I really want. Weighing the pros and cons is not helping me at all. Maybe coz deep down it is what I really want though there's still part of me that won't let go of my so called "comfort zone".

Is this the correct move I should do? Coz seriously the cons are more than the pros yet it's like am convincing myself that it is still better to move.

Help, I need some serious help to decide.

Monday, November 18, 2013

the sign

This may be a bizzare and stressed day for me.

Earlier this morning, I received a funny call from Blesie greeting me with the question if I have a boyfriend. I almost rolled out laughing coz it's unusual for her to ask such question but she said she was serious but soon end up laughing. I got curious only to find out a more surprising news.

I asked for a sign, and I think this is the sign I'm asking for. 

Then the other is trying to call me, several times but I didn't answer it. Soon got an email. Now my brain is being fried as to how to respond to their email. 

Why now? I mean, this is so surprising. Am having this mixed feeling of emotions - surprise, proud, confusion.

I'm already at my comfort zone. But is this enough for me?

I need to make a decision fast. But hopefully I will make the right one.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

please pray for philippines

I don't have anything to give, so the only thing I can do is to pray for everybody who got affected by the disastrous typhoon.

Indeed Philippines was not that rich, but people strive to live inspite of everything. But when the only few things they have were taken away, only prayers to keep their faith stronger is the only way to survive to this.

Honestly, it breaks my heart everytime I see nor read the news. I know the most amazing trait Filipinos have is being a survivor. I do hope and pray that everything will be okay. 




Btw, I did attend a training this afternoon. As expected from me, I sort of blank out and didn't understand a thing about the training. Afterwards, Leon asked me about it and am actually totally clueless since I didn't listen so I kinda invented something to tell him. I can see the confusion in his face so I search the topic and found out that I just told him something out of this world. No wonder the look in his face, I'm so embarrassed. Actually, my mind is flying somewhere coz I'm thinking about that email. I haven't replied to it but I need to. Sooner or later I need to make a decision. To go or not to go.